Cukuplah sudah kata-kata
janji manismu
siapa saja terpedaya
dengan bibirmu

Berkali kau menangis merayu padaku
namun menghilang sebaik saja

lalu air mata jatuh akhirnya
dengan tak sengaja engkau
membuatku terumbang-ambing di angkasa
hancur musnah semua mimpiku
hillang di angkasa

pernah kau bilang tulus cinta
hanya boneka hmm..
cuba kau pandang ku di mata
serius di pinta

berkali kau menangis merayu padaku
lalu menghilang sebaik saja

lalu air mata jatuh akhirnya
dengan tak sengaja engkau
membuatku terumbang-ambing di angkasa
hancur musnah semua mimpiku
hilang di angkasa

tak sanggup lagi aku menahan duka
tanpamu aku hilang arah ke mana

lalu air mata jatuh akhirnya
dengan tak sengaja engkau
membuatku terumbang-ambing di angkasa
hancur musnah semua mimpiku
hilang di angkasa..
dengan tak sengaja engkau
membuatku terumbang-ambing di angkasa
hancur musnah semua mimpiku
hilang di angkasa.

Angkasa. -Hady Mirza.
Am not a fan of him,but the words mean a lot to me.

" People become stronger because they have memories they can't forget. That's why they call growth."

And ya.. things can remain just as memories. That is.
Its about moving on; earlier people come out of your life, later people come in.
In the end all of us will gather to one place. So doa is the only thing it takes. Like you also said.

It's amazing when strangers become friends,but its too bad when friends become strangers.

Bila hati ini dah betol2 kecewa.
That'll be my answer without you spitting the question to me.

I used to try my very best to be there with her when she's facing her failure so that she won't feel left out. Yet the moment when I really need the presence.. Well. Actions proven enough.

And the reason why I didn't come on that particular day is because of you.
No other reason. Its just you. The person I used to love most. Used to. That is. Indeed.

Never dare to ever say the word "miss". You never mean it. Action speaks louder than words.

This heart is tired of begging for your time and love. Tired of being a beggar. A beggar who never been running out of love, yet, still and still keep on begging.

Mencuba untuk fahami
Mencari celah hatimu
Bila harus menangis
Aku akan menangis
Namun air mata
Ini telah habis

Segalanya telah kuberikan
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Mungkin kita harus jalani
Cinta memang cukup sampai disini

Mencuba untuk rasuki
Menyentuh palung jiwamu
Bila harus menghiba
Aku kan menghiba
Namun rasa ini telah
Sampai di hujung lelahku

Segalanya telah kuberikan
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Mungkin kita harus jalani
Cinta memang cukup sampai disini.

-D'Massiv : Cinta sampai di sini.

Looking back I realized again how much mother went through a lot of hardships. A petite lady who used to be timid, a little introvert, very shy, not daring and very obedient now became a very strong single mother. A timid full-time housewife now became a businesswoman from different trades to trades just to bring up her children. Am very proud of her.

So again I wondered.. A person like me who is very much different from the mother.. And even mum said she saw my attitude developed from young toddler: an independent and fast learner girl; now being a very weak defeated person. I am very embarrassed of myself. Indeed, I am.

So I suppose.. Its not too late to flip a new chapter within these last few months left before 2010 ends.. Am gonna start afresh!

Indeed the rhythm made by the waves and sea breeze that sweep through the face helps her dive deep into the soul and swim in her thoughts.
Guess I really am customized with living alone with no surrounding peers now that its been multiple times I spend time at the beach with my own self.

Now lets get started with prelim exams! :)

"Do what you want. Nothing to say"

Thank you a lot my dearest sleeping beauty prince. You don't care anymore don't you. You washed your hands off me. That is just what it takes to make my day. A mark on my life.

An effort made. I did. I tried and I still am.
Was fighting. Yet hearing whispers saying "What if it's really meant to be?"
Shutting my eyes tight.
But the mind keeps playing around.

What if...... I really am in love with you.
What if I'm destined to share.

Am having sleepless nights. Weeks of them.
Sitting alone.
Walking alone.
Crying alone.
And talk to myself.

Has been making ringing answer-less calls.
Has been receiving loving and care full talks.

This mind is tired of those empty promises.
But the heart is missing those friend full moments.

Sorry but the truth is proven.
We share the same age and lifetime but different mindsets.
This last farewell.. Am bidding to everyone.