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Thursday, May 13, 2010

I MOVED ON.

And when you left, someone came in.
I thought there I am, with no appetite, no mood, no affections and even interests.

Come to think of it, maybe this is just because when life suddenly being hard on you, its just to make you become a stronger person so as to pick yourself up quickly and move on.
Alhamdulillah I've seen the grace behind everything. A torch in the dark. May I have the strength to face upcoming unpredictable things ahead of me.

And at last, somebody is about to understand what I've been trying to mean what it's all about.
When that day we discussed and understood that the bond that we had might be the best to be just as friendship, life has been welcoming opportunities ahead of us. And I hope that you've really met what you want from a person, I'm very happy for you. Yes I know and I realise, even if you don't grumble how I usually don't express my happiness for you. How much I don't express my love for you and how much I am proud of you. I have my reasons why I didn't do all that. You've been receiving praises, applauses and glories of your perfection by people who doesn't see your flaws. And that's where I have to be. To show you your imperfection. To make you understand that life will not always be a smooth road to sail. Because I want you to prepare for the worst. You may be like a therapist to me and even sometimes you play a role of a counsellor but there are things which you are not strong enough to face and that's where I will be.

I know you was expecting my wish. I've already plan something but that night when you called and made me rage with anger, I know I shouldn't get carried away especially when now we spend lesser time together but I guess that was somehow a reflex response to your words. But I didn't intend not to wish you on time. Never did I imagine that you actually didn't receive my msg. I thought you didn't reply me because you might be offended towards my attitude.

And fine. I have to resend the whole chunky sms and that wasn't sentimental anymore.
But when you said that I made your day, actually, that was enough to make my day as well.
Well, Happy 17th Birthday my dear sleeping beauty prince. I've always love you.
If the right time has come, I promise we'll have a double date. And I promise I'll try my best to accept her whoever she is.