An effort made. I did. I tried and I still am.
Was fighting. Yet hearing whispers saying "What if it's really meant to be?"
Shutting my eyes tight.
But the mind keeps playing around.

What if...... I really am in love with you.
What if I'm destined to share.

Am having sleepless nights. Weeks of them.
Sitting alone.
Walking alone.
Crying alone.
And talk to myself.

Has been making ringing answer-less calls.
Has been receiving loving and care full talks.

This mind is tired of those empty promises.
But the heart is missing those friend full moments.

Sorry but the truth is proven.
We share the same age and lifetime but different mindsets.
This last farewell.. Am bidding to everyone.

Lay down on her back
Gaze to the empty walls
She hopes and recites
Oh please show me what love really is
To sacrifice or not to
Either way she still suffers
Strangled in a forbidden love
Or suffocate in an affection sorrow

She is hallucinated by adoration drug
Embracing happiness in guilt
Bewitched by his integrity
And pampered by his possessions

Drowning in emotions and deliberations
How could she destroy a beautiful house
Just to build an empty castle
For she has to learn the hard way
To earn happiness requires effort
How could she lay on one's beads of perspiration

She knew she is blinded
But she caught sight of him standing there
Almost every moment when she needs a figure
To support in case she falter

What she wants is just a companion
To fill up the container of boredom
To heal the wound of lonesome
And to have a presence to cling on.

Oh please, again she recites
She can't afford another farewell
Her mind keep saying let go
But her heart just don't do so.